Amber Heard has blasted ex-husband Johnny Depp as a liar and insisted she stood by ‘every word’ of his explosive testimony – but admitted she regretted being so ” horrible” during their “very, very toxic” marriage.
“Until the day I die, I will stand by every word of my testimony,” Heard, 36, told “Today” in an interview Tuesday about the charges that cost him $10.4 million for defamation.
She said bluntly that Depp lied when he denied hitting her, while also insisting that she was never the one to start violent fights in their “ugly” marriage.
“I never had to incite him – I responded to it,” she insisted to Savannah Guthrie, claiming that audio clips of their fights were edited out and caught an abuse victim whose life was “in danger”.
“When you live in violence and it becomes normal – as I have testified – you have to adapt,” she said of her own actions.
Still, she conceded: ‘I have done and said horrible and regrettable things throughout my relationship.
“I behaved horribly, almost unrecognizable to myself.
“I have so many regrets,” she said, conceding that sometimes she “didn’t even know the difference between you know right and wrong.”
She said the wedding was “ugly” – but also sometimes “very beautiful”.
“We were awful to each other. I made a lot of mistakes – a lot of mistakes.
“But I always told the truth,” she insisted.
The ‘Aquaman’ actress called the six-week libel trial “the most humiliating and horrible thing I’ve ever been through.”
“I have never felt more removed from my own humanity. I felt less than human,” she said.
“Every day I would walk past three, four sometimes six city blocks lined with people holding signs saying ‘Burn the Witch,’ ‘Death to Amber,'” she said.
“After three and a half weeks I spoke up and saw a courtroom. filled with Captain Jack Sparrow fans who are vocal, full of energy,” she said, referring to Depp’s “Pirates of the Caribbean” character.
This overwhelming swell of support for her ex ultimately caused her to lose the case, she said.
“I think the vast majority of this trial took place on social media. I think this trial is an example of what went haywire, which went wild.
When asked if she thought the jury had seen the online support, she replied, “How could they not? I think even the best-intentioned juror would have been unable to avoid this.
She also repeated her lawyers’ claim that she lost because “really important evidence” was left out of the case, evidence that helped her win a court battle in UK.
She also praised Depp’s now-famous lawyers.
“I will say his lawyers did a better job of distracting the jury from the real issues,” she said.
Still, she mocked them for suggesting her testimonial had just been her last acting role.
“Says the lawyer of the man who convinced the world he had scissors for his fingers,” she said, referring to Depp’s role as Edwrad Scissorhands.
“I had listened to weeks of testimonials implying that – or saying quite directly – that I am a terrible actress.
“So I’m a little confused how I could be both,” she said sarcastically.
Yet she admitted that the savage testimony that led to her brutal loss in the courtroom also painted her and her superstar ex in the worst possible light.
“I wouldn’t blame the average person for watching this and how it was covered and not thinking these are Hollywood kids at their worst,” she conceded to Savannah Guthrie.
“But what people don’t understand is that it’s actually so much more important than that, saying it was ‘our First Amendment right to speak.’
“My understanding of what that means is not just freedom to speak – it’s a freedom to speak truth to power,” she said.
“Truth is the word. And that’s all I said.
“I said it to power – and I paid the price,” she said.
His comments came on the second day of footage of a “large-scale table session” leading up to an hour-long “Dateline” special on Friday night.
On Monday, clips showed her also saying she wasn’t surprised the Virginia jury ruled against her.
“How could they not come to this conclusion? They had sat in those seats and for three weeks had heard relentless testimony from paid employees and — near the end of the trial — hikes,” Heard told Savannah Guthrie with a nervous chuckle.
“I don’t blame them. I actually get it – he’s a beloved character and people feel like they know him. He’s a fantastic actor,” she said of her ex.
She insisted the trial was so one-sided that it was impossible for the jury not to be dazzled by Depp and come to a conclusion on the facts alone.
“How could they, after listening to three and a half weeks of testimonies that I was an uncredible person, not believe a word that came out of my mouth?” she asked.
Amber also spoke out about the “hate and vitriol” she received online as her ex was widely praised and embraced by the public.
“I don’t care what anyone thinks of me or what judgments you want to make about what happened in the privacy of my own home and my marriage behind closed doors,” she said. at Guthrie.
“I don’t assume the average person should know these things, and so I don’t take it personally.
“But even someone who is sure that I deserve all this hate and vitriol, even if you think I’m lying, you still can’t look me in the eye and tell me that you think on social media he there was fair representation.
“You can’t tell me you think it was right.”
Depp won his bomb libel suit after seven Fairfax jurors ruled in his favor that a Washington Post editorial Heard wrote about becoming a “public figure representing domestic violence” smeared his reputation and harmed his career.
Heard’s attorney, Elaine Bredehoft, blamed the legal loss on Depp’s team’s approach to “demonize Amber and suppress the evidence.”
Heard’s team also slammed her ex-husband for taking to TikTok and touting the widespread support he’s received.
“As Johnny Depp says he’s ‘moving forward,’ women’s rights are moving backward,” a spokesperson for Heard said in a statement.
“The verdict’s message to victims of domestic violence is…to be afraid to stand up and speak out.”
The Washington Post has since added a detailed editor’s note to Heard’s op-ed to highlight how it was deemed defamatory.